New Year Resolutions for 2017

I am looking forward to 2017. I turn 36 years old on January 28, 2017. I am going to write the first draft of my book length memoir Ayesha’s Story: The Schizophrenia Memoirs by the end of 2017. I will keep my Mercer job until December 2017.  I am going to try to get my second chapbook manuscript published by looking in the Poets and Writers magazine classifieds and sending it to two or three chapbook publishers or chapbook contests. I want to finish my children’s writer course by December 2017 and to hopefully publish a children’s book. I will work on my children’s writer course for all of 2017 when I have free time. I am writing poems too. I will see if Cave Canem accepts my chapbook manuscript (2017).

I submitted four poems to Rattle magazine…

I just submitted four poems to Rattle magazine this morning through Submittable. I went on the Rattle magazine website and they said they were looking for poems written by poets with mental illness in particular so I said I’ll send in four poems and see what happens. I will hear from Rattle sometime next month in January of 2017. I enjoy writing poems. I have a chapbook.  I submitted another chapbook length manuscript to Cave Canem this past September of 2016. I am excited hoping I’ll get any of the four poems I submitted through Submittable accepted and published. I hope Cave Canem chooses my chapbook manuscript to publish!

Self love is a gift from GOD to Ayesha (me).

I feel like GOD showed me his love for me by causing me to love myself. I have never been popular or had more than a few good friends. I became sort of cool when I took the poetry workshop I took at Cave Canem in the fall of 2015. I love being a poet and all things having to do with poetry. I love showing myself love by buying anything I can afford that’s nice for myself. I love plus size woman clothes. I am a 2X/3X and I love being an African American woman. Self love is a gift from GOD to Ayesha (me). I became a memoirist when I took memoir with Edi Giunta. I am a member of the NJCU Writers Workshop. I feel good!

Bowling and Pizza (leader Ayesha)

I just came home from leading the Bowling and Pizza event. My mom gave me and my friend Lou a ride to Curtis Lanes the local bowling alley. We had pizza and I bowled. Lou did not want to bowl. Lou kept poking fun with me and Lou said I must have like ten Harley’s in my garage because I had on a motorcycle jacket with the matching motorcycle hat. I had a fun day. I have to go to NAMI Mercer to return the receipts, the attendance, the money collected for pizza and the left over money from the $200.00 check. Krazysexycool that’s me!

Self acceptance is a gift from GOD!

I think of self acceptance as my gift from my Creator GOD. I believe in GOD. I know he loves me because he made it possible for me to like even love myself and for me to have a positive self image. I praise GOD for the gifts of self acceptance and self love. I could have stayed broken inside but GOD healed me! I am not a self hating or a self loathing person like you would think someone in my circumstances would be. The Holy Spirit bares witness in my soul so I am a self love advocate and I can inspire other people to become self love advocates too! I love GOD because he loves me and I love myself. I am a self centered person but I love myself so that’s okay! People don’t always like me but that’s okay because I like myself, I love myself. I don’t want to be better than anyone else I just want to be (me) Ayesha. I want to be the woman that GOD created me to be. I am an amazing woman, I am Ayesha Karim! Now I can OWN that!

I have come so far from my Al-Karim School days…!

I remember my earliest memories of being a Kindergarten girl student and having someone throw out of the window the prettiest pink London Fog winter coat my mother had bought me to wear to school for winter. Another child saw my coat and threw it like eight floors down. A day later I got back my coat but it was soiled and very dirty and my new cute little pink London Fog winter coat was ruined. I still remember that. I am proud to say I wore school uniforms for almost all my years in school except grades 7 thru 9 and 11th and 12th grade. Now that I’m 35 I have values that were taught to me as a child or that I grew up with. I cannot believe I’m on payroll on Mercer and I’m schizophrenic. That’s krazy! I couldn’t believe I got an email from Harvard Extension School inviting me to work toward a degree or certificate program. I want to get my Master of Liberal Arts from Harvard I won’t lie. That is the opportunity of my lifetime. You need to take and pass three preadmission courses with a B or better and then you are admitted to Harvard but your three preadmission courses count toward your degree. That’s sweet! Harvard is the best school in the country. Ayesha at Harvard in the future…maybe?