TheAyeshaSite

I love memoir writing. I love writing poetry. I love blogging. I love the course I’m taking so I can also write children’s books.

I don’t focus on being “successful” much. I want my own life. I am a fan of certain celebrities and successful people but I don’t want to trade places with any of them. I like being myself. I don’t think of myself as any less good, as any less attractive, as any less desirable or as any less talented. I feel good about who I am. I’ve come a long way.

I thought I would be sick forever and die in a psychiatric hospital. I have a fear of psych wards. Through psychosocial rehabilitation and going to an adult partial care program five days a week I was soon able to access and get outpatient services. I feel like going to a program five days a week for over a year was one of the best things I ever did. I would go to a program again depending on whether or not they have journaling and poetry groups.

I see myself through different eyes now. I look back on my childhood and I have no anger or resentment toward anybody. I feel good about myself and my life. I always wanted to write a memoir. I wrote a memoir. I’m looking forward to going to a party next Saturday. Edi invited me to Memoirfest again. I love parties. I listen to Digital Underground sometimes with headphones. I love their vintage music videos.

I don’t want to spend all of my time thinking about how thin, beautiful, talented and more desirable some women are to heterosexual men. I’d much rather have a career as a nonfiction/memoir writer, blogger, children’s book author and poet.

I love being myself. I don’t want to be somebody else. I learned so many lessons in my life. Self-love is a gift given to me by my creator that is priceless. I love putting on lipstick.

Working is something I will always want to do. Professionals with disabilities and famous people with disabilities are cool!

Here I am in my 30s feeling so good about myself I can’t believe it feels this good to be Ayesha and to be comfortable the way I am. Self-love is a miracle!

I’d call it AYESHA magazine and have people take good photos of me. I’d be on the cover every month like O Oprah’s magazine. I admire Arianna Huffington of Huffington Post the most of any woman, next would be my mom and Dr. Edvige Giunta.

I thought that doesn’t have to bother me. I’m staying focused. I am trying to get through my semester in college. I have a paper due on December 15. I have an assignment due on Wednesday. Time management is important in college. I have a week or so to go before my essay is due. It is supposed to be 1,500 words and the Works Cited needs to be APA style, not MLA style. I have come such a long way. If I don’t hear voices verbally attacking me I don’t think about my inner demons.