TheAyeshaSite

When I was a child I was bullied so badly by other African American kids and I couldn’t wait to be a teenager. When I was in high school other girls would tell me I was pretty to be dark skinned. I like the word pretty you know like the movie Pretty Woman with Julia Roberts. I love being a poet, a memoirist, a blogger. an author, a writer and a reader. I would not do anything else except maybe have my own magazine published called Ayesha magazine and a news segment or TV segment called The Ayesha Show. I would love to do a segment where I either interviewed people or gave advice to people who said “What should I do…?” I’d say “this is what I think you should do.”

I’ve come a long way. I think I’ll have my memoir finished by the time I turn forty. I’ll also have my second Bachelor’s in Early Childhood Education by age 40. I sing myself and my friends at NAMI acknowledge me. Everybody knows I’m the Black one and they are mostly all friendly with me and treat me like they like me. I find the people at NAMI Mercer NJ to be great people for the most part. Even when we talk race everybody says “Ayesha you are doing a good job”. They all congratulate me about going to college and pursuing my goals. I have good friends there. They all know I’m Black and I sing myself. Nobody would be mean or treat me poorly. The people are mostly very nice and seem to genuinely like me! But most people would say “Ayesha sings herself” That’s contemporary and it makes me feel so cool! I love dressing up for the Just Friends Halloween party every year I’ve gone as everything from a nun to a Lawless Lady. This year I’m going as the American Dream and I’m thankful for Black American Poetry!

I always wanted to be a teacher. Specifically an English teacher at a middle school. I love being a poet, a memoirist, a blogger and a book reviewer. I’m taking a course in Writing for children and teenagers right now. I love the things I do. I don’t want to be a nurse or a doctor. I have my BA in English. I want to go to Englishtown. I love New Jersey. I’m from Brooklyn originally. I believe in myself even though people say things about me. I really don’t care what people think about me. I’m going to love myself regardless. I really don’t care what anyone thinks of me. I love being a black/African woman named Ayesha Karim. I’m special, I’m worthy of love, I’m somebody. I’m beautiful. I’m a black beauty! I do a lot of cool things! Being me is being cool. I don’t want to do what anyone else does. The things I do are cool.

Phillis Wheatley the African genius from Boston. Harvard here I come!

I am 5’10. I love being a tall woman. I know models have to be super thin and tall to become models and do modeling. I love wearing long maternity tank dresses and berets. I also love Coach hats. I am a member of the tall society. Tall women are sexy. Ivanka Trump is my age and she is 6 feet tall. She also wears heels. I admire that!

the achievement of one’s full potential through creativity, independence and a grasp of the real world.

I remember being in the NAMI Mercer library and falling in love with the memoirs written by women who had a severe mental illness years ago before I took Memoir with Edi. I love the word memoir. Here I am in August of 2017 with 115 pages and a goal of having 60,000 words to be able to have a book length memoir. Even if I never get an offer from a publisher I’m going to write my memoir. I’ll do a first draft of how many ever pages 60,000 words comes out to and then I’ll tuck The Art Of Slow Writing and revise my memoir at least three times so I can have a book I can be proud of. I love Edi Giunta!

I need 60,000 words to have a book length memoir. I will be meeting with Edi and the other members of the NJCU Writers Workshop book group in September. I can’t wait to see Cassandra Casella. I messaged her on Facebook. She’s an English teacher at a charter school in NJ. I remember thinking “oh that’s nice and she has her 120 page honors thesis since May 2015. Now she is working on a book too!” I remember Cassandra saying “nice sharing” to me after I’d read from my piece Memories of Me before she left Memoirfest in Decmber 2014 the first memoirfest I went to at Edi’s house. Cassandra is a classmate and someone that has a cool biography. I am looking forward to taking LTED 305 this coming Fall to prepare for the Praxis CORE. I want to be a teacher.

I’m either 5’9 or 5’10 and I love being appreciated for my height, my body and my black beauty. I’m a big mama but I am trying to lose 60 pounds by next year. Big mama would love to slim down but wants to keep her curves. I want to be a size 14 or a size 16 and buy clothes that are feminine and flirty. I look smaller than I am. If someone thought a size 12 would fit me at my goal I would tell them no that’s a size 16 or a size 18 that I wear at 195 lbs.

Right now I’m a size 22W-24W. I’m a 2X/3X. I am cleaning out my entire closet and giving my unwanted or even new clothes to my older Italian gentleman friend Lou’s church St. Anthony of Padua. Department store clothes were not created for my body. They were made for somebody else. I want to lose weight so I can wear nice clothes but what it may look like I can fit and my actual size differs.