I am very proud of my uncle.

I have nice memories of my uncle Colin as a child my uncle was a male figure I looked up and thought was a positive African American role model. He is very nice too. There were not a lot of African American males I knew who were also able to say they finished graduated school and I was also impressed by that. It was something I always told my uncle was really cool about him. My uncle is older. He works for Spike Lee. Spike is someone I also admire. I feel like film making is cool. For the history of cinema I saw Get Out with my friend a few years ago and it wasn’t that scary and filmmaker Jordan Peele won awards for it and I think he is very cool. I liked Laurence Fishburne. He passed away a year ago I think. I like Lee Daneils too. I feel like film and cinema in America is something very cool that these African American men that have made a name for themselves as filmmakers is something cool that can never be touched. I feel American because I was born in this country. I don’t really feel like I would want to live anywhere else other than maybe somewhere in the Caribbean.

I discovered Alicia Keys in a music therapy group when I was at St. Francis Medical Center on the Psychiatric unit in Trenton, New Jersey back in the 2000s.

I really like Alicia Keys. I am around her age. I’m 38. I love singer/songwriters. I feel like they are cool for singing and especially if they are like Alicia and have fifteen Grammy awards and write their own songs. I like her music. I love how she plays the piano. She is so cool and she seems to be down to earth. I like how in one of her music videos she has on a nice outfit playing the piano. She has a Yamaha piano too. To be a pianist is something very cool and to write your own songs. I just like and admire Alicia Keys so much.

I am beginning to appreciate the gift of life.

I just want to say “thank you God for allowing your peace to wash over me”. One day at age 31 I had an experience with God and I felt a peace wash over me. I knew I had made peace with my illness that day. I sometimes struggle but I have this blessed assurance that I am not alone. I felt alone many times in my life even when I formed a few friendships and dated a guy I met online and then I took a break with a handsome guy that I no longer see anymore. I feel happier now. I know I need my sleep. I power down my laptop at 11 pm and then it’s lights out all over the house. I live with my mother and my stepfather. I want to meet a man and have a good lasting relationship. I want to become a mother.  I have a good relationship with my mother and my mother’s side of the family. On my biological father’s side I have three half sisters. I became acquainted with my stepfather’s family too but we are all kind of not really close. I feel like I need to make sure I can trust people. I’m the kind of friend that never tells my friends secrets. I know it has not been easy for me but I don’t blame anyone else for my problems. I accept that I have a difficult illness and I’m a work in progress.

I had a health scare.

I was hospitalized for blood clots in my lungs and I was having anxiety too. I have been up since 7 am. I am going to be working on my writing. I am taking a course with The Institute of Children’s Literature. I am half way through my course. I need to work on my assignments and make them better. I will be in the library from 10 am to noon. Then I’m just going to chill until 12:30 pm a friend is picking me up and we’re going bowling and getting pizza.

Jamaica Kincaid (pen name) was my model author.

I took an Advanced Memoir Workshop with Dr. Giunta at NJCU in the spring of 2015. She liked my 18-page memoir “Tale of three half sisters”. This was one of the best things that had ever happened to me while I was a student at NJCU. I also got chosen after filling out a survey one of the staff people at NJCU put $200.00 on my Gothic Card. I have kind of always been the kind of person to socialize but mostly stay to myself. I like going out but I also love to blog and do other forms of writing. I appreciated Dr. Giunta giving me Jamaica Kincaid as my model author. I have read Lucy and See Now Then. I think Kincaid’s prose is beautiful. Now that I’m getting noticed for my own writing I’m psyched that I have four nominations for blogger awards. This is better than anything I could have dreamed of having success as a writer.

I love the way my life kind of followed it’s own trajectory.

I went to college at NJCU to studying English and Writing. I enjoyed what I went to school to study. I took Advanced Memoir Writing with Dr. Giunta. I got an A. I wrote a memoir that Dr. Giunta liked. I was so excited to have her like my memoir Tale of three half sisters. I enjoy memoir writing. I am working on a book project. Dr. Giunta will be back at NJCU in January 2020.

I lost 40 pounds on my own.

I was able to lose almost 40 pounds on my own. I know I am capable of losing weight on my own and keeping it off. My medications always made me hungry. My appetite increased because I was taking medication. I never knew how much I could succeed with my goals for my life until I started doing things on my own. Nastaja Torres said to me “wow Ayesha you looked so good with make up on at Memoirfest (December 2014) I could not believe it.” I liked the compliment. Vania interviewed me over the phone and in her Women in Lit paper she wrote in her paper that I was a self love advocate. Vania graduated from NJCU. Vania was a very nice young woman. I think about females empowering other females and I always think of Dr. Giunta and her memoir workshops she teaches at NJCU. I will always appreciate Dr. Giunta for her kindness and I’ll never forget how much she said she liked my memoir Tale of three half sisters. I now feel like I have gained so much from memoir writing and writing as a way of healing!