Writing is the coolest invention.

I never knew of something I enjoyed and felt it made my life richer besides writing. I love to write. Memoir writing is my favorite sitting at home writing memoirs lights up my life. I am a non-smoker but I lit up for 20 years. I would light a cigarette every 30 minutes. I lit up for sadness and for happiness. I just lit up non-stop. Cigarette addiction was ruining my life. I always had this urge to smoke. It was so strong Chantix was the only drug that saved me from ruining my life. Nic-A also is a resource I go but only when a friend takes me about once a month. I pray to stay smoke-free. I haven’t had one cig in over four years. No one knows how happy I am that I was nominated by Stuart for the Awesome Blogger Award. A big thanks also to all of the blogs following my blog. Thank you now I feel less lonely and more connected than before!

Letter to my younger self

Ayesha you were such a pretty little black girl. You were bullied a lot and you were victimized. All of the kids that didn’t like you were jealous of you. I know if I told that you would start to like yourself in your 30s you’d say “wow that fast.” I really want to say younger self-remember to forgive yourself and to be forgiving of others. My family always had means we were middle class we were not rich. I feel good about my values and the way I was raised. My identity was fashioned in my childhood so I know if I remembered my dolls were always African American I’d think of my mother and Kwanzaa memorabilia and black dolls things I’m thankful for.