I want my life. I’m 35 and I like myself.

I want to live. I don’t want to die until I’m in my 80s. I like who I am. People give me and other women like me who struggle with mental health problems every reason to not like ourselves. Liking yourself is a revolutionary act in a society that gives you and others who have various disabilities every reason to have a poor self image. I put on my Tropic pink Fashion Fair lipstick and I smile in my mirror. I buy nice dresses for myself and other times I wear nice pantsuits. Years ago I had a job interview and my mom bought me a black Lane Bryant pant suit that I loved. I have a nice red jumpsuit in my size. I wear a 2X and an XXL. There is this 3/4 length mink coat in brown in The Fur Vault at Macys that costs like $5,100 that I want! I love fur, leather and Le Vian chocolate diamonds.

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I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Science since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

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