Ayesha “the self love advocate”

I have been called a self love advocate by Vania and I liked how that sounded. Vania wrote that I was a self love advocate and a Schizophrenic African American woman. Vania is from Peru and she is Hispanic. She is also an Early Childhood Education major. She wants to be a Kindergarten teacher and I want to work with toddlers at The Goddard School or a Montessori school. It wasn’t until people I went to college with that knew I had written a memoir and people I knew from NAMI Mercer started to acknowledge me for the self acceptance tip I am on that the way everyone or most people perceived me changed. Suddenly this black girl wasn’t staring into space with this blank stare on her face. I was a NAMI Mercer volunteer and poet. I became known as a self love advocate and most people would probably say “Ayesha really likes herself and seems to feel good about who she is”. Others say “Ayesha that’s a lot of bling” and still there are people that don’t like me or care for me for whatever reason. I think it is a big accomplishment for me to be a self love advocate and I am a Schizophrenic African American woman at the same time! I think that makes me crazysexycool. I’m a 2X and I still dress up and have fun whenever I can at a party or with family. I love my life even though it’s far from perfect it’s mine.

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I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Science since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

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