I am not angry or bitter about the past. A lot happened for my good and for better or worse I have myself and my mother and my friends. I started writing my memoir that I am still writing and typing in my last two semesters at NJCU. Edi Giunta is my memoir professor and my friend. Edi invited me to her house to the party she holds at her house in Teaneck, NJ every May and December know as Memoirfest. I shared my story twice after taking Memoir Workshop and Advanced Memoir Workshop. I remember how positively everyone responded. I did not expect people to be interested in my story in fact I thought people would respond negatively or indifferently when I shared my story but thank goodness they responded like they did. I am still writing and typing my memoir: Ayesha’s Story (The Schizophrenia Memoirs) and my goal is to have at least 60,000 words to have a book. Edi told us a book is 60,000 words to 70,000 words at NJCU alumni day back in September of this year. I am so happy I can say I really like myself and I buy nice things for myself and I treat myself. Next July I will have not smoked a cigarette in three years not one cigarette. I quit with Chantix and I am glad I did. I am now a non-smoker and I will never smoke again. I love my life. I love being alive and living. I want to live to be at least 80 years old.