I can relate to Struggles. I have know Difficulty. It’s a part of my experience in my life.

I remember when I went to cast my vote at Village Elementary School. I felt like oh no something is going to happen. I just felt Difficulty coming my way. Fortunately nothing happened. It’s just a part of me being Ayesha or being me that sometimes in  my life I am going to be doing everything I know to do and Difficulty or Struggle will be right around the corner. From trying to pay for my things separately from my mom (on my own) to wondering why certain cards I still can’t get approved to get in my own name at 36 years old. This is my struggle this is my difficulty. That and I have a mental illness that I will struggle with until I die. Oh and the last thing is my self harm hallucinations that Dr.M documented. I know I don’t want to harm myself but I get these visual self harm hallucinations all day until I fall asleep every night. Thank God for me that I sleep so well in my 30s that I can function well even with the Difficulties I have. I sleep well!

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I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Science since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

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