My opinion of myself is good. That means God’s opinion of me is good.

I don’t need people to validate and approve me when I have the validation and the approval of GOD. God says “Ayesha I approve you so you can go ahead and approve yourself”. Man, that is powerful. I know everybody is not going to like me. Some people don’t like Black people. I’m a Black woman. I get that. I don’t care who don’t like me I am going to continue to like and love myself. I buy myself nice things I can afford on my own and I treat myself every month with the money I used to spend on cigarettes. I have not smoked one single cigarette in almost 3 years. I don’t want to go back to being a smoker. I love being free from cigarettes and Nicotene. I don’t miss cigarettes and smoking one bit. If I could do my life over I would have never smoked but I’d keep my bottles of wine. I love a little alcohol every once in a while. When I’m celebrating I love a little alcohol. I remember going to the bar at Felicia’s wedding in November 2014. I had a few shot glasses of dry raspberry liquor and a glass of red wine. I enjoy alcohol once in a while. I love wine coolers. I like Pink Mascato now too!

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I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Science since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

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