Where does self acceptance come from anyway?

All of my Bible scholars will be able to answer this question:Where does every good and perfect gift come from?” “It comes from God (It comes from The Lord)”. Over the course of these five years of self acceptance and self love I cannot help but remember the old me. You know the one that felt sad, rejected and unloved. Well I don’t feel that way anymore. I’m good to myself on purpose. I feel like I deserve to be treated just as good as the best people I know. I guess what I’m getting at is how did self acceptance happen to me. Lil ol me not somebody else. That’s where the secret really lies. I don’t know how one ends up accepting herself when you had my childhood. I was that shy little black girl that could barely go to school without being bullied. I didn’t even know bullying was such a problem until I talked to some other adults who knew of kids who were bullied. Barron Trump was the victim of bullying but then so is what seems to be the least kid in a predominately African American community like Old Brooklyn (what I call the Brooklyn of my childhood) the Brooklyn I  remember when I go furthest back in my own memory. This St. Francis Place was all black and now almost all of the black families moved down South. The North was always the place to get to in our past, in Slavery times. Slaves would say “If I could just go North I may have a chance at a better life”. The only Southern states I feel comfortable with are Florida and Maryland but those are my personal choices. I have not really been to the “South”.

Published by


I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Science since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s