Even if the complete healing or cure doesn’t come…

Lord I believe in you like the song (Crystal Lewis version) and you created me to love and accept myself and to love and help others. You are God and I will bless you as the good and faithful One even if my complete healing doesn’t come. I have my sense of self intact and I have insight into my illness. If my mother and my father forsake me you will take me up and become my Father and my Mother. God I know it was always your will for me to smile when I put my lipstick on and to say I love myself in my motorcycle hat and Tiana B dress and my other outfits at work. I am Ayesha and I may have SZ but I thank you Lord that Schizophrenia and Schizoaffective Disorder doesn’t have me. I praise you Jesus and I bless your name. Amen!

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I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Science since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

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