I smile in my mirror and let God be God.

I am not God. I know God smiled at me that’s why I like myself so much. Somebody said “I promote myself” and I accept that they said that or that they thought that. People have always had opinions about me and they always will but I decided to love and accept myself anyway. That’s what I am going to do for the rest of my life. I’m going to put on my lovely lipstick an smile at my reflection imperfect as I am and love who God created me to be. I am not jealous of anyone else. I think “hey Ayesha girl you’re attractive and wearing a nice raspberry beret” no pun intended. There are people who don’t like me honestly because I’m African American and I love myself. I know how that sounds but it’s the truth. When I have difficulties even now after I got better I realize I am a work in progress and that I can never say I have arrived. I know racism is a part of it but God desires for me to be healthy and whole. I believe wholeheartedly in self help and I want to be more independent. I want to become a Kindergarten teacher even if I just do it part time.

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I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Science since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

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