I feel good about how far I’ve come

I feel great in my 30s. I had so so 20s and a difficult adolescence. My childhood was full of emotional abuse by other kids and teenagers who really didn’t like me.  I know people who think my childhood was unfair but look at how good my present is. I am feeling good about Ayesha when I never dreamed I would and so soon too. I used to be the girl who felt stressed as a kid. I got headaches. I believe in myself and I know God is with me everywhere I go. The peace that fell on me that day at AAMH back in 2012 when there was a backlash from the white clients at AAMH when I was attending the program let me know I can be in God’s presence anywhere I am. I know I met God that day at the program when I felt like I was going to cry on our lunch break. I know God is with me now for sure so I sleep well and remember Dr. Maddiah caring enough to prescribe my meds and the Chantix for me that aided me to quit smoking for over 3 years.

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I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Science since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

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