I cried the other day. I realized I felt kind of sad.

I had a lot of feelings of sadness I wasn’t dealing with. I had a good cry and I thought of all my successes I had in my 30s. I just had my 38th birthday a few weeks ago. I got invited to an event Edi is having and I’m going. I am being less hard on myself. When I make mistakes I remind myself “Ayesha you made a mistake you’re human.” It’s hard to deal with my illness sometimes. I forget things sometimes. I am trying to be good to myself and let things go. I remind myself the next time will be better. I always tell myself that I can’t do anything about the past but I can only do things in the present and in the future. Letting go of the past and doing my best in the present is what I focus on because the past is in the past. I try to be more present and do all I can now.

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I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Science since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

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