I am beginning to appreciate the gift of life.

I just want to say “thank you God for allowing your peace to wash over me”. One day at age 31 I had an experience with God and I felt a peace wash over me. I knew I had made peace with my illness that day. I sometimes struggle but I have this blessed assurance that I am not alone. I felt alone many times in my life even when I formed a few friendships and dated a guy I met online and then I took a break with a handsome guy that I no longer see anymore. I feel happier now. I know I need my sleep. I power down my laptop at 11 pm and then it’s lights out all over the house. I live with my mother and my stepfather. I want to meet a man and have a good lasting relationship. I want to become a mother.  I have a good relationship with my mother and my mother’s side of the family. On my biological father’s side I have three half sisters. I became acquainted with my stepfather’s family too but we are all kind of not really close. I feel like I need to make sure I can trust people. I’m the kind of friend that never tells my friends secrets. I know it has not been easy for me but I don’t blame anyone else for my problems. I accept that I have a difficult illness and I’m a work in progress.