I feel like it’s cool to be me now.

My life kind of followed it’s own trajectory. I had successes after the age of thirty that made me feel so much better about myself and about my life and what I was capable of. I have been remembering times where I found it hard to go out or even enjoy things. I still am a work in progress but I don’t think of myself as mentally ill. I know life is what you make it. If life gives you lemons you are supposed to make lemonade. I know even when I had a lot of unfair circumstances I would never take my life. I feel blessed to have the things I have. So many people have less than I have. I think a person finds perspective when they say “I have things too. I may shop at Walmart or Target but so what there is more to life than labels on clothes.” I have a few items but mostly coats, jackets, socks and handbags. I don’t want to blow all my money on expensive things. I am on a budget. I want to teach my child this too. I will never blow money on material things. My birthday is coming up in January 2020. I want to be able to meet with my sister Alison. She is finishing her PhD program at Walden University. I admire that Alison is going to be finishing her PhD program. She is my half sister and we both had the same father. I want to just be able to meet in Manhattan for lunch. I want to be able to meet with her and to share my latest success and just say “I remember you saying I always had a gift with literacy, thanks big sister.”

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TheAyeshaSite

I am a Black Guyanese woman in my late 30s. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Sciences since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's writer course. I love reading memoirs and I do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

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