I am more aware that I need to power down the internet by 11 pm.

I’m always on the internet. My chiropractor calls me Internet Ayesha. I had a health scare. I’m taking a medicine for my heart and I was told I had fluid in my lungs. I smoked for over twenty years. I have been smoke free for five years now after my caring psychiatrist prescribed Chantix for me. I don’t know if anyone has ever seen those Chantix commercials. The turkey and the water hose is such a funny thing about those commercials. I am never going back to my past addictions. I refuse to socialize with smokers. I want to live a long life. I even lost over forty pounds on my own. I will never smoke again. I was so scared when I was in the hospital. Now I read books, I blog, and I write in my journals. Journaling and blogging have been helpful for me to feel a part of a community of bloggers and writers. I also had a few essays and poems published in mental health peer journals that just give publication opportunities to writers who have mental illnesses. I am hoping to be able to publish my memoir in a few years. Bloggers that have mental illness have something in common with me. I have been living with a mental illness for over twenty four years. My illness is so hard. Regardless of my illness I feel so cool to be nominated by Stuart and also by Michelle. I thought wow Paris, France is where Michelle is blogging from. Here I am blogging in New Jersey.

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I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Science since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

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