I sometimes fear losing my mother.

Losing my mom is a fear I had since my childhood. I lost many of my loved ones but I have a large extended family on my mom’s side with a few supportive cousins. I had a relationship I really liked with a man who paid whenever we went out. I always remember him say to me “I’ve got the bill don’t worry about it”. I dated the guy for a little over a year. We have a photo together because he came to support me at my college graduation back in May 2015. I have been journaling a lot and working on a memoir that is basically from the onset of my mental illness through my 30s. I’ll be 39 in January 2020. My mom had a surgery in 2009 and she was in the hospital twice. I love my mom and I want her to know I appreciate her.

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I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Science since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

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