I feel happy to be nominated for four blogger awards and just to have had the experience.

I have been thinking about my nominations every waking minute and it is because this is really a first experience for me to have had like this. I give praise to God first and foremost but I like taking credit for it. I spent a big portion of my life with the most difficult mental illness you can imagine. I sympathize with people who have mental illnesses because I’m one of them but I have insight into my illness. For years I volunteered with NAMI and it was a Godsend that I was able to find socialization through the Just Friends Social Group. Some days are still really difficult for me. I learned to be proud of the woman I am and to feel gratitude to the people that gave me opportunities along the way. I never had a lot of people like me or many experiences that were positive and happy like this one that I could look back on but now that I’m older if someone asks me “do you like yourself Ayesha?” I say yes because I do I learned to accept myself just the way I am. I believe God had a reason for creating me this way. It was never easy for me. I was this shy, quiet, bullied black kid that got teased a lot that never really had a lot of friends maybe a few friends but not many. I feared bad things happening to me like getting beaten up or just things other than losing my figure. I am always judged or criticized by people one or the other. I remember early on in my early life having difficult experiences that were hard for me and when I had this sudden moment of clarity and there was divine intervention involved I had a peace wash over me when at that moment I knew I had made peace with my difficult illness. I heard mean vicious voices that would make me feel really sad and I wasn’t even able to have a voice. When people read my writings and they say “Ayesha you nailed voice I can hear your voice in your memoir”. I just love that I have my own distinct voice as a writer even if I didn’t say much.

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I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Science since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

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