I try to remain positive in a chaotic world.

When I think of how much progress I have made even positive experiences I have had in the past I’m sure that God is there in the details of my life. I know God was always the unseen hand in my life that I was not always sure of myself because honestly I had my share of doubts but in the past eight or nine years I can say I am sure of the existence of God. I had a peace wash over me eight years ago one day when I was anxious not knowing what I was going to do on that day. For the first time in my life I was sure that God was right there with me. I felt overcome with sadness that day and God was there to remind me that although I may have felt alone or like I was all by myself I wasn’t. The condition of schizophrenia is a difficult condition to have. I would hear very critical mean voices. I’d feel really sad sometimes and lonely. I got to a partial care program that I’ve been going to for a few months. I got certificates for perfect attendance October 2019 and November 2019 and also December 2019. I am looking forward to my 39th birthday on January 28, 2020 and just appreciating my life and the people God placed in my life too. I feel less alone.

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I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Science since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

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