I know God is with me even in my difficulties I encounter in life.

I have started to pray in the mornings when I wake up. The next thing I do is splash some cold water on my face and say “it’s morning I’m awake”. I brush my teeth after that and about an hour later I take a good shower with a sweet smelling Caress bar soap. I know I found Caress after I had my first period when I was thirteen years old. As a child I had been bullied badly but I have turned to God now. I love to pray to God when I check the time on my phone I say a prayer in the morning. It feels good to pray to God. I know it’s not easy for anyone and that’s why I know God put these successes in my 30s so I could enjoy these successes. In my early 30s I started to like myself for the first time. I stand out now but I realize also that I was meant to stand out. I have had some difficult experiences and I appreciate the things people in my life do to help me out. I found God in my early 30s. That’s why I pray now instead of sweating the small stuff. I know God has been there all this time it just may have been the reason it caused me to doubt his existence but I don’t anymore. I am sure that God is with me beyond the shadow of a doubt. When I bump up against difficult things even at age 39 that are just hard for me I thank my supporters but I don’t have that many supporters. I am aware of my triggers people pushing my buttons and trouble sleeping. Now that I know and can identify just what triggers me I will just pray when I wake up and also again before I go to  sleep. I will power down at 10 pm. I have been sleeping better in my 30s. I’m thirty nine years old now. I focus on God and also sleep hygiene. I need my sleep. I get it most nights but on the few nights here or there I don’t sleep my day is shot the next day. I am trying to get some natural sleep aids that won’t interact with my Rx medications.

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TheAyeshaSite

I am a Black Guyanese woman in my late 30s. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Sciences since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's writer course. I love reading memoirs and I do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

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