I feel like I am finally able to stand out.

I know many times especially in my childhood and teenage years I was bullied badly and not liked by other kids. I was self conscious about the way I looked and I feared getting beat up at school. Sometimes I hear critical voices in my head. I don’t have as many fears as I used to. I had a spiritual experience one day when a supernatural peace washed over me in 2012. I found God that day. I never really knew my biological father but I had a step father that was supportive of me but we didn’t get along as much. I know I have a strong sense of identity as a black woman. I feel like I understand why some people have certain opinions about me but I am treating myself to happiness in my 30s. My 30s were pretty good though. I have painful difficult memories of my childhood and my adolescent years.  I recently turned 39 years old. My goal is being able to drive by the summer of 2020. I am saving up for a used car. I want to be able to get a probationary license in 3 months after I get my examination permit.