The way I see myself and the way others see me is different.

I see myself as an attractive black woman. I get compliments on my clothing and people also say I’m a kind person. The way I see myself and the way other people see me is different. Some say nice things about me others criticize me for reasons unbeknownst to me. I felt so good being able to write and type my own memoir. I also feel really good about myself despite the difficult mental illness I have and it is really a difficult illness to have. Some days in the past I would hear mean critical voices that said the worse things about me but the change in me occurred in my early 30s where for the first time in my life I started to like myself. I became so much more comfortable with the skin I was in. I got teased so badly as a child for my color that an experience I had back in 2012 made me sure I wasn’t alone but many times I had doubts and fears but God was there. I found myself thinking about spirituality and God and even prayer for the first time. I don’t want to get bogged down with negative people or naysayers. I know God is real but it wasn’t until I had a personal experience with God one day for myself that I was sure God was real. Sometimes people say there isn’t a God but I challenge that opinion. I had my own God encounter that made me want to seek God for myself. He is not distant believe me. He is there.

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TheAyeshaSite

I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Sciences since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

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