I accept myself the way I am now that I am older.

These issues are hard for me but I started to accept myself with my flaws.  I pray to God even in my hard times. I know God cares about me enough to help me to make peace with my mental illness. I try less hard to be accepted by others. Now all I thank God for is helping me to stand out and not trying to be like someone who doesn’t look like me but may more fit in with the societal standard of beauty blonde or olive skin and blonde or blue eyed or green eyed or me having (gorgeous) brown eyes. One eye exam with him was all it took even someone saying I had good hygiene. The compliments I have received have been what made my 30s different but even people saying positive things about me I remember the people who liked me enough to compliment me and say I was nice too. Being teased badly as a child it was hard for me but the nominations I received caused me to reassess my progress and to be completely honest with my readers. I feel happy to be a part of the WordPress blogging community. I have only positive things to share. I know people can be really negative at times. I want to remain focused on the successes I’ve had. God understands that it was hard for me. I thank God for being there for me. He calmed the chaos and the raging storm. I know I can pray to God so I decided to pray. I know God hears my prayers.

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TheAyeshaSite

I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Sciences since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

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