I kind of always got criticism but these blogger award nominations are one of the first successes I’ve had in a long time.

My 30s were pretty good. I was also sleeping better starting in my early 30s. I would have insomnia. I don’t know what it was but some days I’d go two days without being able to get any sleep. The medications I was on made it hard for me to function because they had side effects like drowsiness and dizziness. I have been studying for the Praxis Core for a few weeks. I will be spending my week and weekend indoors just studying my Praxis Core preparation study guide. I know I am focusing on my goals and the tasks at hand. I am happier just having these four nominations. I was made to stand out not to try to be like someone else or motivated by conforming or changing the way I am. I have hope because of the four nominations I got in the past year. It’s cool to stand out. You suddenly realize being you becomes effortless as you get older. As a little girl I had got teased a lot because of the way I look sometimes I would get bullied really badly by teenagers as a eight or nine year old girl. I know particularly  for females girls get all these things but in our heads that we aren’t as nice as other females but it actually because of the society we live in. I was born in the U.S. and as a black woman it is almost impossible for me to be called bea-you-tiful by the standard of beauty and it seems to leave dark black ladies out, we always see these super thin Caucasian models. I know why but I feel like the society perpetuates this by always only choosing certain models that fit a standard of beauty that doesn’t include black women my complexion. I realize this is true everywhere not just here in the U.S.