I kind of always got criticism but these blogger award nominations are one of the first successes I’ve had in a long time.

My 30s were pretty good. I was also sleeping better starting in my early 30s. I would have insomnia. I don’t know what it was but some days I’d go two days without being able to get any sleep. The medications I was on made it hard for me to function because they had side effects like drowsiness and dizziness. I have been studying for the Praxis Core for a few weeks. I will be spending my week and weekend indoors just studying my Praxis Core preparation study guide. I know I am focusing on my goals and the tasks at hand. I am happier just having these four nominations. I was made to stand out not to try to be like someone else or motivated by conforming or changing the way I am. I have hope because of the four nominations I got in the past year. It’s cool to stand out. You suddenly realize being you becomes effortless as you get older. As a little girl I had got teased a lot because of the way I look sometimes I would get bullied really badly by teenagers as a eight or nine year old girl. I know particularly¬† for females girls get all these things but in our heads that we aren’t as nice as other females but it actually because of the society we live in. I was born in the U.S. and as a black woman it is almost impossible for me to be called bea-you-tiful by the standard of beauty and it seems to leave dark black ladies out, we always see these super thin Caucasian models. I know why but I feel like the society perpetuates this by always only choosing certain models that fit a standard of beauty that doesn’t include black women my complexion. I realize this is true everywhere not just here in the U.S.

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I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Science since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

One thought on “I kind of always got criticism but these blogger award nominations are one of the first successes I’ve had in a long time.”

  1. I love how you opened up about your desires to proceed with more education. Education is a life long road. I have went back to school and them College a couple of times. I did this for the same reasons you did Ayesha. I want to get a BA as I am almost 65 now. This does not mean I am useless automatically at 65 years old. Way to go and keep your will power going full blast my friend !


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