I am done playing the blame game with my parents. I am an adult. I’m going to be forty years old next January 2021. The decisions I make are my own to make. I don’t try to be a certain way for someone else to love me or treat me better. I realize now that because I’m older I can be good to myself on purpose but I want to think of my mom, my step father and my grandparents. I have three half sisters on my biological father’s side. My biological father died when I was like 2 years old. I remember a lot of things that happened in my early childhood like my father dying. I pray for world peace and an end to chaos and racism in the world. This world will change with more people who care that will change the world.