I express gratitude to my few supporters and I talk myself down from the ledge. When people say I did good I feel at ease. I know no one makes it alone. You need mentors and people to help you be accountable to God and the law. I know my God for myself. I feel his peace. I enter into a rest. I sleep better. I say prayers even afraid. I awaken to spiritual music and worship. I say power down at 9 pm and make sure you check your phone to know what the day and time is. Don’t forget. I got a new phone. I can’t afford an i-phone. I get a prepaid phone every two years. I love God. God is with me. I encourage myself. I can do it. I can make it with God in my life and friends and family to support me even if fewer and far between. I was in a hospital with blood clots in my lungs. I have been getting tests run to see if I am okay. I will wait for the results. I believe God’s report. I distrust the medical community. I lost almost fifty pounds on my own.
I first thank God for all of my blessings in my life.
I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Science since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents! View all posts by TheAyeshaSite