I always felt like it was always better to give than to receive.

The moment I felt like I was maturing as a person was that I was starting to take responsibility for my own actions, reactions and choices. You never think before you act sometimes. When you say something you regret you wish you could take words back. I have been thinking about my mental health. I know God is with me wherever I am. I also hallucinate sometimes. It’s hard to describe an illness like my illness. It’s hard some days. I have been trying to continue to be kind and respectful to others. I also am happy because it’s good to be me, but I’m in a good place. I don’t want to harm myself though. I want to live and enjoy the life I have with all of my choices but I am also trying to become more self sufficient. I have always understood why everything that makes it cool to be me now may have just been easier after all.

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I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Science since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

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