I am a victor with God on my side, not a victim.

For years of my life I thought “why me?” I know God was saying to me “I cared enough about you Ayesha to heal you.” I have had difficult experiences in my life but everyone will have difficult experiences in life. God healed me. I pray to Him more. I am trying to develop a prayer life. In my life, I at least formed a few friendships so I can seek counsel from a friend. I have made a few new friends. I like talking things over with my friends instead of a therapist or a doctor. I keep certain things to myself. I feel pretty good though. I have been driving for a year. I am trying to get more practice driving. My mom lets me drive her Honda SUV. I really like my mom’s Honda SUV. I hope to buy a used Jeep at a used vehicle dealership somewhere. I slept well last night. I usually get up at 6 am in the mornings. Today is Sunday. It’s the official start of the week. I have a difficult illness. I will continue to stay involved with NAMI. I need social supports.

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I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Science since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

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