Author: TheAyeshaSite

I will be finishing up my course in writing for children. I love the successes I am having. My writing instructor at The Institute of Children’s Literature gave me great feedback on a harder assignment I revised and it felt good. I am looking forward to finishing my course with ICL by January 2021. I look forward to receiving my certificate in writing for children and teenagers. I hope I can get my children’s books published including a middle grade or YA novel idea I have. We can submit the first three chapters of a book length work and I am going to choose to revise one of my earlier lessons. I am going to be waiting until the library in my area reopens and I will be using the rest of this year making writing appointments and typing up my last three assignments to complete my course. I have an extension through the month of January 2021. I will be sitting in the library a few times a week once the library reopens. I feel better when I work on my course in the library. I hope and I pray that I can get some help and support for my book from my instructor. I also entered a poem in the Institute for Writers poetry contest that I think will be getting back to me sometime in August.

I know God is with me. I have been a volunteer with NAMI for almost ten years. I just appreciate all of the staff members there. I got so much help from peers and also over the years I enjoyed added perks of being a member of the organization. The people at NAMI are so helpful and nice too. I have been trying to think more about my parents. I know they made certain sacrifices for me that made it possible for me to enjoy the life I enjoy. I want to try to do things for my mother, my grandmother and also my stepfather that helped my mother raise me. I never thought of myself as a role model but I know I have influence and I care enough about my peers with a mental illness to think of them as well. I want to be a helpful person who tries to help someone else out. I think the best way to try to get your foot in the door of employment is volunteer work. I’ve enjoyed so many great perks since I became a member of NAMI and a NAMI Mercer NJ volunteer.

I feel good about the volunteer work I did for almost ten years at NAMI. I have hope for my present and my future. I am an optimist. I see successes into my 40s and 50s. I don’t want to limit what I can do. Next January 2021 I will be turning forty. I am actually looking forward to turning the big 4-0. I have a good relationship with my mother. I feel close to my grandma too. I wrote a short poem for my mom called You Inspire Me that was published in the latest newsletter. I appreciate my mom so much. She took me to quite a few doctor and dental appointments over the past few months. I want my mom to know that I love her. I won’t let my disability stop me. I want to be able to able to write for children and teenagers. I look forward to getting a certificate in writing for children and teenagers from The Institute of Children’s Literature in Connecticut.

One of the things I love about public libraries is the stacks of books. I also really enjoy reading. I read about a book a month. I’ve read some good books. I like reading the genre of memoir also. I know reading opens a whole new world to a child. I have a dream of publishing my own children’s books. I was told I had a gift with literacy by my oldest half sister Alison who is a literacy coach. She works for the board of education in NYC and she used to work as an elementary school teacher. I think the gift comes from my BA in English and Creative Writing but I didn’t get high enough grades to my dismay. I am doing well on difficult assignments and it makes me really happy. I have two assignments to finish my course with The Institute of Children’s Literature. I am really excited and I am going to take my time and finish strong. I was informed that the last lesson gives me a chance to revise an earlier assignment I wrote in the beginning or the course. I will take that opportunity.

I feel cool to say I am nominated for four blogger awards

I express gratitude to my few supporters and I talk myself down from the ledge. When people say I did good I feel at ease. I know no one makes it alone. You need mentors and people to help you be accountable to God and the law. I know my God for myself. I feel his peace. I enter into a rest. I sleep better. I say prayers even afraid. I awaken to spiritual music and worship. I say power down at 9 pm and make sure you check your phone to know what the day and time is. Don’t forget. I got a new phone. I can’t afford an i-phone. I get a prepaid phone every two years. I love God. God is with me. I encourage myself. I can do it. I can make it with God in my life and friends and family to support me even if fewer and far between. I was in a hospital with blood clots in my lungs. I have been getting tests run to see if I am okay. I will wait for the results. I believe God’s report. I distrust the medical community. I lost almost fifty pounds on my own.

I try to help my mom, my grandmother, my family, and my friends. I want to try to have a relationship with a man of my choosing. I want to have more independence also writing for children and teenagers too. By next January 2021 I will be getting a certificate from The Institute of Children’s Literature. I am psyched. I like myself. I like the successes I am having as a writer. I no longer hold on to anger about the past it helps me worry less. I’m letting go. I want to just enjoy all of my things that were happy successes I could call my own. All I have is the time I have left with my friends and loved ones.