TheAyeshaSite

I became myself. I am writing a memoir I’ll have for my 40th birthday. I really persevered and got my BA in English. I would do that again. I wanted to be an English teacher but now I’m going to school for Early Childhood Education and I like it.

I was at a Catholic church yesterday and the church has a goal of promoting multiculturalism. I think there should be a Mary that looks African, a Mary that looks Asian, a Mary that looks Hispanic or even Native American. I would nominate myself as the Mary that looks African and just work for years on a statue in Honor of Maryam that looks exactly like me to ship to Africa or the Caribbean. I have always thought there should be non-white images of Mary but almost all the images are white. This is my opinion and I know it shouldn’t matter but in a lot of ways having one image is not inclusive to non-whites.

I don’t get a lot of compliments but men say they love my eyes. Almost all of the men that have complimented me have been Caucasian men. I love compliments. I appreciate them regardless if these men are white men oI’m going to remember them. I’m going to remember the complement, not some issue where I feel a black man should have complimented me. To me that’s crazy. People say things about me but when I hear “workaholic” or “queen of self promotion” I think wait a minute that was about me. I love wearing contacts and taking pictures without my eyeglasses. I like the woman I became. I love myself. I don’t want to be any other woman. I am beautiful as Ayesha! I think I would make a great Black/African Mary image or statue to create for the Caribbean or Africa.

The Miss Ayesha’s Kids Show or the Miss Ayesha kindergarten teacher show where I teach the kids about poetry and other topics. I would use my children’s book collection. I have I Dissent which tells Justice Ruth Bader Gindsburg’s story. I also have a collection of children’s books about well-known people like Sonia Sotomayor and Separate is not Equal about the Brown v. Board decision. There is so much I’d like to share on my kids show that I’d always plan to share books with the kids from children’s poetry books to The English Roses book by Madonna. I have all Madonna’s beautiful children’s books and I’d share them on my kids show. I remember the book I worked on with Lori and if she ever thought I’ll publish the book me and Esha worked on one day. Lori kept it but if she publishes it I’d be happy that she chose to publish it.

I believe in myself. I love being Ayesha. I love my own possessions. I love my costume jewelry and my Halloween costumes. Justin thinks my Halloween costumes were cool. Friends love my poetry. I love poetry. Emily Dickinson is my absolute favorite woman poet! I love how I have admirers of the opposite sex. Fred said he loved how my eyes looked in the picure I took. Fred encourages me to develop the picture. Fred is picking me up tomorrow at 3pm. I am going to develop the picture at the CVS and  blow it up.

I want to share my thoughts. Sometimes honestly I can tell that certain people I know of but don’t really know personally don’t like me. I learned to love Ayesha. I never waste too much time on who doesn’t like me. I don’t really seek to be accepted. I am the kind of person who follows my own path in life and I love being busy. I love my job at Mercer. People always get me mixed up with a Mentee of mine Kiara because we are the two dark brown black women. I have spent my life getting verbally abused by other people or having my feelings hurt and hearing mean voices. I know that I am as good if not better than other people. People judge me because of the color of my skin but people are amazed by my character. I’m a poet and a writer and I don’t apologize for being me. I know I am the most beautiful girl in the world but in reality society defines beautiful as white or close white and thin and long hair and straight teeth and obviously I do not fit in with that standard of beauty!

A psychic told me I was going to be a millionaire in the near future. Just a month or so from now she told me I was going to be Ayesha the unique Ayesha the millionaire. I am getting comfortable in my own skin in my 30s. I will be 37 next January 2018 and now I was told I will be a millionaire before the year is over. I feel so good about being me and here comes the thought of myself as a millionaire with an abundance of money that is not my parents’ money but my own money. Ayesha Karim $$$ million my net worth.

The black girl from NAMI Mercer NJ and the black girl who has a BA in English since August 15, 2015 and she is now a second Bachelor’s degree in ECE major at NJCU and also the black girl who is a Mentor Ayesha for the DREAM program at Mercer.

“Ayesha like herself”. I wonder what people will say about me when I’m long gone. What will friends and family remember about me? What will classmates I went to high school and college with remember about me? I’m not sure. I’ll remember Edi! I am going for 60,000 words to have a book-length memoir and I will revise my manuscript three or more times so I can be happy with my memoir when I publish it.

A lot of young women I know like Michael Kors. I don’t. I love Coach. My step dad got me a Coach bag for my birthday one year when I was in my 20s. I loved the bag. It was a deep espresso shade and it was beautiful. I love the following brands: Anne Klien, Calvin Klein, Nike, Ralph Lauren, Dana Buchman, Vera Wang, Adrienne Vittadini and Cythnia Rowley, and Liz Claiborne.