A beautiful surprise

The brokenness was healed or began to heal after I turned thirty. This self assured confident feeling of wholeness and self acceptance really took me by surprise. I had been a broken African American teenage girl with body image issues and people made fun of me about my looks, my skin color and other reasons. When I was in my 20s the major things that happened to me was at the age of 26 I graduated from Mercer and at the age of 27 I became involved with NAMI Mercer the same organization that gives me a place to volunteer and quality of life. This feeling of self acceptance was a feeling that was new to me. It came by surprise to me because as a child I was bullied badly and criticized. For a while it was just me and my mom and then when I was nine or ten years old my step dad Neil became my dad. I remember turning thirty and thinking” I like who I am”. That was a feeling I thought could not be right at first. All the bullying I encountered as a little girl even as a teenage girl and all the struggles in my 20s and now at thirty here I was liking myself and accepting myself and feeling really good about who I am! It’s still a process of continued self acceptance and independence and self reliance for me.

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I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Science since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

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