Everyday though I never give in I get strange feelings like I harmed myself. I basically get self harm hallucinations all day until I go to sleep at night. Sometimes I get the feeling like someone is bashing my face in to my laptop. New York Times best selling Memoirist Mary Karr said you can’t write memoir if you can’t literally punch yourself in the face believe that or not. Mary Karr said it! I am a proud African American woman and I’m a Poet and a Memoir writer and an aspiring children’s book author. I am ambitious. I am writing my memoir, Ayesha’s story right now. All of the spiritual abuse is unfair to me. I don’t harm others and I sure as hell don’t want to cause any harm to myself. Schizophrenia is such a tough illness. I’m on a whole new level now that I’m on payroll at Mercer and I refuse to be silenced or abused by anybody. If you’re out there haters you can kiss my ass!
I am a Black Guyanese woman in my 30s. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 36-credit Bachelor's degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Sciences since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's writer course. I love reading memoirs and I do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents! View all posts by TheAyeshaSite