I believe prayer is actually a form of meditation.

I pray and I’ve decided to pray ever since I had a spiritual awakening after turning thirty. I started to feel more comfortable in my own skin and what I saw when I looked in the mirror. It was difficult for me to see myself as a pretty little girl when I was a little girl but I had a spiritual awakening in my early 30s that made me aware of a power that was higher than myself. I knew God was really there. I doubted God’s existence for a while but I felt a connection to God as early as maybe ten years old. I felt like I was alone but I had a supportive family. I had very humble beginnings even though we didn’t have as much material wealth I felt like the moment I had started to write to express my hurt feelings through writing poetry in the 5th grade I had an outlet for my hurt feelings. I know God saw me and was there but the moment I had the experience of the peace of God washing over me healing me mind, soul and spirit. It was the first time I was sure beyond the shadow of a doubt that God is all loving, all knowing and all powerful. I knew I wasn’t alone and God had been walking with me all this time. I believe in God as the source. I focus on being the best person I can be and also being helpful to other people including my family members and friends.

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TheAyeshaSite

I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Sciences since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

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