I was always the last girl to be picked many times when I was a child.

I have an outlook that is positive. There are people that always say things to bring other people down. I know the successes I have had with my blog was really all it took to brighten up my days. I always got teased badly about my complexion as a little girl. I started to just be less hard on myself and more accepting of the way I look. I’m a friendly easy going person too. I never make a big deal out of things that aren’t that big of a deal. Sometimes friends compliment me or say something they like about me but for the most part I focus on God and being good to other people. I wouldn’t treat someone in a way that I wouldn’t want to be treated. I have enough wisdom to know self acceptance will last me my lifetime. Sometimes life makes me feel like hiding from the world because of the stigma of my mental illness but I force myself up early every morning. I have a little routine. I wake up early and I brush my teeth, wash my face and take a good shower with some Caress soap or body wash that lasts maybe twenty minutes. I like the smell of the Caress perfume body wash. The thing is others with mental illness that are high functioning experience set backs too. I think they need a peer supporter who has lived experience to help them and tell them what they can do to get better. WRAP class at NAMI helped me a lot. I took WRAP class three or four times. I never got treated as good as a child. All of my issues stem from difficulties I had as a child but now that I got these nominations for my blog, I express gratitude toward the people who nominated me and say TheAyeshaSite gets a nomination with a bunch of other bloggers. I am the only person that may share things about peer support because this past January 2020 my case manger at the agency I go to gave me a special peer support award. It made me feel so happy. Other than the nominations for blogger awards this was the first award I have ever gotten. My award says Peer Support Award and my name Ayesha Karim on it. I even got perfect attendance awards with my name on them. I encourage other bloggers with mental illness to have hope and know they are never alone. Sometimes I ‘d feel a little sad but I try not isolate myself and every now and again my case manager says her clients can take a mental health day if they need it but I will continue to go to my program regularly. I hope by the end of this year I can graduate and apply for a job. I have a resume that I will try to get help with at the public library nearby. I’m also spending my summer finishing up my course to write for children. That’s always been something I wanted to do and I should be done with my course by the end of the summer or maybe the fall.

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TheAyeshaSite

I am a Black Guyanese woman. I'm thirty nine years old. I went back to college to take Early Childhood Education classes. I want to get a second 48-credit BA degree in Early Childhood Education by 2021. I go to NJCU. I have a BA in Creative Writing from NJCU. I graduated from NJCU in August 2015. I transferred to NJCU from Mercer. I have my AA degree from Mercer in Humanities and Social Science since May 2007. I write poems, I write memoirs, I'm a blogger and I am taking a children's lit course. I love reading memoirs. I also do book reviews from time to time. My favorite poet is Emily Dickinson. I grew up in Ewing, New Jersey. I live in Princeton Junction with my parents!

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